forgive me God...

Tomorrow is never promised to anyone,
But standing before Allah(swt) on the Day of the Judgement is.


The day when each and every individual will stand in front of ALLAH(swt) and will be questioned about his or her deeds.

Let's get back to Islam, before it's too late, let's turn back to Allah(swt) before we turn in to dust and our soul will be in the hands of Allah(swt).

Oh my Rabb, I have destroyed the better part of my life with sins, so have mercy on these wasted years of my life and reform me not tomorrow but today, today and only today Allah.

Remove the darkness of my sins from the previous years from my heart for I cannot carry any longer the weight of such sins and disobedience.

Allah my eyes have been destroyed, my tongue, oh Allah I have been destroyed!

Yet, you never once left me alone, you never once stopped your gaze of love and affection.

Ya Allah, take me out of this worldly trap; I deserve no riches, no fame no honor just YOUR love, YOUR closeness, and YOUR friendship.

For if YOU are mine, all is mine.

If YOU are lost, all is lost.

Allah, how lucky are those who have found You, they live in peace, tranquility, and contentment, knowing that You are pleased with them.

How much longer must I suffer, how much longer must I feel this emptiness within me?

Ya ALLAH forgive me the sins I may have committed in the brightness of the day,

and forgive me the sins I may have committed in the darkness of the night.

Ya Rabbi forgive me for all the sins that I have committed intentionally, and forgive me the sins I may have committed unintentionally.

Please forgive me Ya ALLAH,
please forgive me,

Accept me Ya ALLAH,
accept me.

Become mine YA ALLAH,
become mine.

For I wish I become Yours, YA ALLAH.....I wish to become Yours.
AMEEN AMEEN AMEEN
THUMA AMEEN.

Narrated Anas(R): The Prophet Muhammad(s.a.w.) said, "Allah says: 'When a servant of Mine draws near to Me, a span, I draw near to him a cubit; and if he draws near to me a cubit, I draw near to him a fathom. And if he comes to me walking, I go to him running.'"
(Al-Bukhari)

the last goodbye

9.3.2011.. a date ill never forget...the last goodbye.. gone for good to heaven a place u deserve to be .. u left us with wonderful memories that touches our heart and its sad that ur gone too early.. too soon to let us tell you that we love you and we miss you too much just the way you miss us...its sad that we never had the chance to tell you all this.. to hug and kiss you and sit on ur laps like we used to ..... i miss u aki.. i really do... we all do:(..

....Al-fatihah to my grandfather Hj Mahfar bin Md Shah...,

*ill see u one day.....
when you lose someone it can be hard to take
the pain that you feel when your heart has to break
the memories you keep are all in your mind
as you search your soul for more to find
the way their skin felt the smell of their hair
as you keep thinking over and shedding a tear
the years may pass, memories fade to grey
but your getting no younger you'll see them someday
unconditional love is never forgotten
look deep in your heart it is there at the bottom
alone in the dark sometimes in fear
voices from loved ones your hoping to hear
more years pass, they soon fly by
but your always looked upon from those in the sky
surrounded by clouds and pure white doves
they listen and watch sending you love
just remember one thing as you sit and you pray
they will be there to greet you, you will see them someday.

foolish ego..

writing this entry to someone for someone... may u know who u are mr so- called ego ... i guess its about time for u throw away ur stupid pride ur lame ego and start learning to respect other womens feeling....other wise i'll tell u no matter how "hot" u think u are ... u wont get a chance to have a girl in ur life... miracles can happen ... u might have one but its wether ur one lucky bastard or shes stupid enough to make wise desicion of her own.. dont be to confident about urself... nothing to be proud of .. seriously!!ur arrogance is showing how insecure u are about urself and crushing other peoples emotions and feeling leads u to no where higher from where u are right now..i got 6 letters to describe u .. L-O-O-S--E-R!!!....