Wednesday, October 26, 2011

HELP!!! I'm getting married....

I'm getting married next month. I 'm getting a little nervous...I mean too nervous... Is this normal? What should I do to make things a little better?


I'm losing my hair and the worst part is pimples growing everywhere even up to my chest -puke-..the relationships are turning upside down....too much drama and I am so bloody tired of all this..

Ive been engaged for more than a year and I have been waiting for this moment since the past 8 years since i met him...but suddenly out of the blue I'm mourning over the end of my single life....probably brides-to-be have to come to terms with... if they don't deal with it during their engagement, they'll deal with it during their first year of marriage.I just have these crazy mixed up feelings - I love my fiance and don't want to be in a relationship with anyone else and I want to marry him, but at the same time I'm leaving behind a time in my life that I'll never get back, and it's fucking SCARY!!!!. It doesn't mean I will cancel the wedding, and definitely doesn't mean I am not mature enough to get married. I am in a sort of in-between time in my life right now. ....EXACTLY SINGLE, but not EXACTLY MARRIED. This might sound weird but, at least for me, I had to come to terms with my fear of whether or not I'd still be me after the wedding. It's a huge life transition, and there are a lot of mixed up emotions that come with it. It's better that I face them now rather than bottling them up.....I just want all this to end soon...EDDY PLEASE put the RING on ME NOW!!!

P/S- I miss all my girls.....especially Farah...come back soon...I need u here:(((

1 comment:

  1. My Dearest Niece Khairunnisa. It is nice to see that you have grown up to be a lady and most importantly in less than twenty four hours, a woman and a wife to a lucky gentleman. It is so sad that I can't witness the biggest and most important day of your life. Nonetheless, Pak Ngah, Mak Ngah, Radhi, Redha, Mia, Hafsah, Hanbali and Rashid wish you all the best in life. Remember that it takes two person some time to adjust to each other in a matrimony and that requires sincere tolerance and patience; for if you do, a lifetime happiness is there awaiting you. Salam dan Selamat Pengantin Baru. Congratulations and Kindest of Regards. Pak Ngah.