i miss him

i miss talking to him ..i just miss knowing the fact i could call him ... and i miss him so much it hurts.. yes it does..deeply wounded as i can say...but im just boo hoing on a stupid bastard who doesnt even appreciate me at all..i'll chalk this up to experience and will try to move on.
Well i have to accept the fact that he will never be with me...Learn what i can from this....take some time for myself and heal, cause ultimately that is the only thing that can help with this type of pain, TIME..;)

shit happens!!!

salam satu malaysia.....!!! hahaha ....just feeling a bit hyper tonight.. thought of doing my laundry but things turns out not accordingly to what i had planned.. hate it when it happen..damn!!!ooops sorry.. i cursed too much.. perhaps within this week i've cursed more than a thousand time... its just not me.. pls dun get me wrong.. its the only way for me to let off my stress.. YES... i 'm too stressed up.. shit happens for no reason and it'll keep haunting me on and on ... im on a trial break up for real. ...how long can it go.. im still unsure about it... still putting hopes that by the time we reunite, he'll be honest about his feelings and our relationship as well ..but if it doesnt work ... than maybe its about time for me to find a person who is an absolutely a dearest darling of a real man..big SIGH:(

scars dont mark history

My past isn't my scars and i'm not mentally or physically damaged to it. So what if i make stupid decisions in my life??.Y bother???.its not that i would die tomorrow and can't fix anything back...it won't leave a single mark on me coz i believe theres always a remedy to heal it . besides this is what people call it "experiencing" and you'll learn life through your experience...wether you called it a stupid one or a superb one it have been set by GOD..ur destiny...my destiny....and sometimes it will answer our questions in the most unexpected ways ... I own the flesh but not the spirits and thus i don't have the power to control myself ...i'm a sinner I'll repent,I believe in GOD and He'll forgive...I am at peace with who I am and why I am the way I am.............................

-there's always a light that will lead you to the rights-

nightmare in crimson!

told u i'll have trouble updating this blog.....hehhehe...btw just to update my recent activities this past few weeks....the weekends were awesome!!! trying to catch up all the box offices movies in cinemas.... so far i've manage to watch Prince of Persia....Dastan turns me on...darn sexy!!.Shrek was ok...but it was quite lame for a final chapter..i was expecting more..however Puss and Donkey remains my favourites of all time:)... Nightmare in Elm's Street...FU**in scary..great movie with lots of laugh...!!!hahhahahah... and yes i watched Freddy Krueger with Tasha in sunway....we were expecting to get our asses scared so we decided to go and watch it during midnight...it worked... freaking creepy when we were lost looking for my car...we were rather confused coz the lights in the mall was dimmed and we actually parked quite far from the cinema...and suddenly we felt like we were somehow in d movie.. running around the long hallway...singing "1 ,2 Freddy's coming for you !!" ..and screaming like complete idiots..:p...never the less it effected my sleep ... hahahha i had nightmares that night....damn u FREDDY!!!

-me n tasha-

For GOD sake plz stop blathering!! you talk almost nothing but rubbish and shits!!!! Do I look like an idiot 2 u???!! do I thi

my ugly confession

Problem solved..... decision made and hoping for no more dilemma ....it was my bad making him sad....all the words is said this past few days ...what was i thinking??!!! this time i am to blame.....I'm so so sorry......I'm sorry for being so emotional, I'm sorry for being possessive, I'm sorry i've shed your tears, I'm sorry for making you sick, I'm sorry i hurt you so deep, I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights, I’m sorry for each and every fight,I’m sorry for your pain & agony,I’m sorry for the missing harmony,my dear eddy please accept my apology ...
I’m sorry for my selfish love, I’m sorry for not caring enough, I’m sorry for my restlessness, I’m sorry for the losing grace, I'm sorry for being myself, I'm sorry for being immatured, I'm sorry that I've failed .....

I'm sorry...I'm sorry... and sorry again.....

I’m sorry of being insane, But ...believe me that I LOVE YOU.....Should I say sorry for that too????...................



p/s -its been ages since i wrote this poem...well then... its dedicated for you in hopes that you will get my point...


ONE

some may say it's just a disaster,
but who are they to judge our laughter,
when they know nothing about our love,
the symbol of rose, dark and dove.

hate to hear all the gossiping
people can't seem to stop the talking,
hate to see what they're trying to do,
ruining the love between me and you.

people can say its fading away,
when we know its going to stay,
the ups and down that we've been through,
the secret that lies between me and you.

there's nothing that can tear us apart,
and no can seperate our heart,
because the moon can't replace the sun,
so when me and you become one...

new hair cut!!

bored of myself...looking for something new...and thinking of a new hair cut!!!!!



should i go for BOB!! OR.....................................................................




go for BALD!!!.. i mean like half bald.. :D