scars dont mark history

My past isn't my scars and i'm not mentally or physically damaged to it. So what if i make stupid decisions in my life??.Y bother???.its not that i would die tomorrow and can't fix anything back...it won't leave a single mark on me coz i believe theres always a remedy to heal it . besides this is what people call it "experiencing" and you'll learn life through your experience...wether you called it a stupid one or a superb one it have been set by GOD..ur destiny...my destiny....and sometimes it will answer our questions in the most unexpected ways ... I own the flesh but not the spirits and thus i don't have the power to control myself ...i'm a sinner I'll repent,I believe in GOD and He'll forgive...I am at peace with who I am and why I am the way I am.............................

-there's always a light that will lead you to the rights-

nightmare in crimson!

told u i'll have trouble updating this blog.....hehhehe...btw just to update my recent activities this past few weeks....the weekends were awesome!!! trying to catch up all the box offices movies in cinemas.... so far i've manage to watch Prince of Persia....Dastan turns me on...darn sexy!!.Shrek was ok...but it was quite lame for a final chapter..i was expecting more..however Puss and Donkey remains my favourites of all time:)... Nightmare in Elm's Street...FU**in scary..great movie with lots of laugh...!!!hahhahahah... and yes i watched Freddy Krueger with Tasha in sunway....we were expecting to get our asses scared so we decided to go and watch it during midnight...it worked... freaking creepy when we were lost looking for my car...we were rather confused coz the lights in the mall was dimmed and we actually parked quite far from the cinema...and suddenly we felt like we were somehow in d movie.. running around the long hallway...singing "1 ,2 Freddy's coming for you !!" ..and screaming like complete idiots..:p...never the less it effected my sleep ... hahahha i had nightmares that night....damn u FREDDY!!!

-me n tasha-

For GOD sake plz stop blathering!! you talk almost nothing but rubbish and shits!!!! Do I look like an idiot 2 u???!! do I thi

my ugly confession

Problem solved..... decision made and hoping for no more dilemma ....it was my bad making him sad....all the words is said this past few days ...what was i thinking??!!! this time i am to blame.....I'm so so sorry......I'm sorry for being so emotional, I'm sorry for being possessive, I'm sorry i've shed your tears, I'm sorry for making you sick, I'm sorry i hurt you so deep, I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights, I’m sorry for each and every fight,I’m sorry for your pain & agony,I’m sorry for the missing harmony,my dear eddy please accept my apology ...
I’m sorry for my selfish love, I’m sorry for not caring enough, I’m sorry for my restlessness, I’m sorry for the losing grace, I'm sorry for being myself, I'm sorry for being immatured, I'm sorry that I've failed .....

I'm sorry...I'm sorry... and sorry again.....

I’m sorry of being insane, But ...believe me that I LOVE YOU.....Should I say sorry for that too????...................



p/s -its been ages since i wrote this poem...well then... its dedicated for you in hopes that you will get my point...


ONE

some may say it's just a disaster,
but who are they to judge our laughter,
when they know nothing about our love,
the symbol of rose, dark and dove.

hate to hear all the gossiping
people can't seem to stop the talking,
hate to see what they're trying to do,
ruining the love between me and you.

people can say its fading away,
when we know its going to stay,
the ups and down that we've been through,
the secret that lies between me and you.

there's nothing that can tear us apart,
and no can seperate our heart,
because the moon can't replace the sun,
so when me and you become one...

new hair cut!!

bored of myself...looking for something new...and thinking of a new hair cut!!!!!



should i go for BOB!! OR.....................................................................




go for BALD!!!.. i mean like half bald.. :D

who am I???

Who am I??? a tricky question for me.....still searching but as far as i'm concern i'm not weird..just UNIQUE!! in terms that i'm being myself ...not being who others are....and don't care what others thinks..yes I'm a SELFISH BASTARD!!! thats how i define myself =).....well before that.. lets get back to basic--->>

born in 1985 ..3rd among 6 brothers and happens to be the only girl....and that explains how i used to be a "TOMBOY" during my childhood....
i was born and raised in Malacca(Bukit Katil)...later on moved to Ampang where my parents bought a house-small but cozy (",)- in Taman Tasik Tambahan...
on my 2nd year of kindergarten (tadika kemas)migrated to the United States as my dad had to further his studies at Golden Gate Universiti California for his PHD....recieved my education from Margaurite Pauline Brown School for 3 1/2 years ..life was tough in the US and financial seems to be a problem....still imagining how we manage to survive with soo little of money and a high cost of living..... we got through it somehow..=).....
in the mid 90's after recieving his Doctorate we moved back to malaysia...home sweet home!!!...back to ampang and spent my standard 3 and 4 at SRK Taman Tasik ...it wasn't long when we had to transfer to Bandar Baru Bangi...stayed there for 1 1/2 years...schooling at (SMK Jalan 3 Bandar Baru Bangi) and later moved to Muar Johor....where i took my UPSR at (SRK Bandar Maharani) and resulted with a not-so-flying colours result......:P

-huhuhuhuhu trying my best to make it fast n simple-

went back to ampang (SMK TAMAN TASIK) for a year--->>>then all the way to sabah (SM ALL SAINTS) for 3 years---->>ampang again...finished my SPM--->>furthered my studies in UIA Matric PJ for my bachelor of english course---->>continued my degrees in UIA Gombak ...flunked my Arab subject :P and finally changed my U and decided to go for private...so here I am....UNITAR KJ...doing my degree in English and majoring in Literature.....

- ffffffffuhhhhhh...FINALLY!!-

soooo..now u see.i've met with tons of different people in different places...experienced all kind of shits in life....i've felt the ups and down...bitter and sweet....i've haven't achieved any of my goals yet....still trying to find myself.....SO WHO AM I??? not wanting to change a bit of myself but wanting to know who i really am...I won't settle for an easy answer but time defines me as I walk through this life always encountering information. I experience.... learn..... react... push...and pull.... always out of order but sometimes in order..... I have many memories many of which lie hidden and stored in my brain but not properly catalogued. They define me without my own understanding. ....I am a tendency..... If you fuck up and need help, I might help you or I might not....I am a hot tempered....I'll say whatever things I want to say even though it'll hurt others......I'm an animal lover and i'd rather not eat than seeing my cats in hunger......I love Gwen Stefanie...been a huge fan since NO DOUBT and still listening to her music until now........ I love shopping but i wear the same clothes over and over again and ended up giving it out to charity.....I'm a lazy a bum.. I sleep at 2 and wakes up at 2.....i make stupid decisions ...regret but never learned a lesson....I'm no longer a tomboy...that was way back during my childhood...now i know how to wear makeups..nail polish..skirts and dress..but still learning how to walk in heels...i'm in love but rather confused....I may be SARCASTIC and UNPREDICTABLE at certain time.. so beware!! ....i'm not pretty and not ugly as well.........i admit i'm naughty..not a BITCH and thus i don't entertain perverts...i won't say NO but it doesnt mean I'll agree....i don't like making friends so to those who are one...u are just being LUCKY!!....
bottom line is...those out there....if i can't find the answers for myself.....so neither could you!!!...SO WHO REALLY AM I??....like it or not this is me NISA SHUKOR....never judge me for something i'm not or something i 'll never be....enough saying.......love and peace=)

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